CURIOUS

 I remember when I was a kid. I enjoyed hearing people talk about anything and always found their conversations interesting. I enjoyed going to the museum, I enjoyed going to any place where I could learn things, except for school. I never liked school and I found it to be a waste of time for me. I didn’t feel I was getting what I wanted or needed. There were teachers that shouldn’t have been teachers because not every teacher knows how to teach. Plus, history and science did not play a big part in my life, at that. I wanted to learn about other things:  about people, the world, children, and the system. I never ever liked politics. I couldn't stand it and I still don’t, since it’s all about lies, illusions, and control.

I wondered what people thought about love and what makes a person love another. I had so many questions to ask. How love could turn into hatred, even to the point of betraying or killing your loved one. How about when someone is so in love and forgets about themselves, gives everything to their spouse and their spouse in turn forgets their existence? These are the things I thought about at a young age. What makes people hate each other? Where did the love go? How does one love somebody and then mentally and physically abuse that human being? That was just the way my brain worked. Once I started to hear the voices I understood so much more, and I learned more as time went on. Then in time I became a Spiritual Teacher.

As a kid I always found people so interesting, especially children - even though I was one myself at the time. The way I thought about people and the world around me, I felt it was normal.I never felt that I was different until later in life. Then it hit me that I saw things differently than everyone else. And soon  I started to see the reality of everything, but it took time and didn’t happen overnight. As I became aware of everything and anything, I made mistakes too, but minor ones. There was a time in my life that I felt stupid because I was not smart in school and I couldn’t read as well as other students. Even my mother agreed that I was stupid, but being born in the United States was the best thing for me, because there was so much I could and wanted to learn. My mother would say I was too nosey. In some ways, maybe she was right. While kids were involved and doing well in school, I was involved in many things outside of school, where I made connections with the world and the universe. I wondered what was out there in the universe, and when I felt that connection to what was out in the universe, it never scared me - I always just felt at peace. I also wondered what makes you, you.

Eventually, I realized my way of thinking was different. Unlike other people I knew, I never felt part of this world. However, giving birth to my children was the only deep connection I felt to it. I found everyone else to be so different. Everyone wants to live a difficult life and make their life hard and complicated while others look for pity, play victim, or feel sorry for themselves. Like the world revolves around them only. No one thinks. There are so many things I’ve seen within human beings. Was I perfect? Absolutely NOT. For no one is perfect at all, and if you think you are, you better wake up before you really confront reality because reality is going to be a shock for you. 

Now things are changing. I remember when I used to go to Puerto Rico with my mother and brother. That, to me, was just a different world and I loved going there. They grew their own fruits and vegetables, and kept animals like chickens, pigs, and cows. It was healthy food. That time was great. Now food doesn't taste the same anymore; I call it the killer food. Even the food you eat outside tastes wrong. For all we know we are eating chemically treated food or even human bodies. I laugh when they say eat healthy food. The best way to continue living and become healthy is to grow your own food. Otherwise, stop saying because it is organic, it is healthy. It’s like saying “this condom I bought is “organic”, so it’s safe to use, oh great, I still got pregnant.” Think about that. Ok, do you really believe if you eat healthy food, you’re not going to catch any kind of disease or get cancer? Please! You may say, “hey there could be a slim chance I won’t get sick,” and maybe you are right or maybe you are wrong. Everything is not the way it used to be. Do you really think food is not being affected? wake up! Children are being born with more CANCER than ever. And let’s not forget about AIDS: it just showed up one day, knocked on our door, and said, “hello, I am here.” Just like COVID. Hello, if AIDS didn’t work for you, maybe this disease will kill you. Watch out for the other illnesses that are heading our way. 

Let’s talk about people killing each other's families and each other’s children, hearing about shots being fired, or people suffering. It’s happening more than ever. It is becoming more normal to hear about these things when you get up in the morning hear on the news or when you read your newspaper.

Let’s talk about how people can see that these children are missing because of human trafficking. What people might not know is It is not just for sex, it is also for taking organs, and experimenting. 

Let's talk about drugs: prescribed and illegal.When it comes to illegal drugs people are beginning to look like zombies. And we must not forget about fentanyl, this drug addiction is spreading worse than herpes. Be aware, for there are more drugs coming to your streets. The more they get people numb the better to control. Wow, now that weed is legal, isn’t it exciting that you’re still being controlled with a substance? I can understand for those that are ill, but that should be as far as it goes.

There is always a light. Also, let’s go to the dark and realize that there is a light out in all of this. But, it’s up to you to see the light and find it. Many have lost it or just don’t know where to look for it. You choose not to see the light because you still carry your own demons. One of your demons is pride, another is ego, and another one is your selfishness that’s feeling powerful. I tell my students  to be careful and be aware of what you ask for because it carries a mask and when you get to see the truth, it’s too late. When you're face to face looking at things, you hope to see the truth.  BUT WHAT DO I KNOW!