ABOUT

All my life I have tried to find answers. I blame my parents for not giving them to me. I also blame them for being who they were and for not realizing what they were doing to me. I’ve been stripped of everything within myself. I have wandered the world to find myself and find where I belong, but all I did was get more confused. Who the hell am I supposed to be? Who is right? What is the truth and whose truth do I believe in? Who are you to tell me anything? You share your knowledge and wisdom, but what am I supposed to do with that? You wrote your book, but am I supposed to believe in what you’ve written? Don’t stand there and judge me or criticize me. None of you have that power over me. Say what you must say, but do not expect me to stay silent either. Who is the foolish one? Who is really the bad one? Answer me. Don’t use a book to teach me anything because it’s just a book written by man. Don’t say you speak to God or whatever name you’ve chosen to give the Higher Power. Besides, how do you know it was God and not a demon speaking to you? You don’t know for sure. They can be disguised just like anything in life could be a disguise that’s meant to trick you. You’re not as smart as you think you are. In reality, you have no idea who is speaking to you so please stop saying God spoke to you. Do you believe it’s God because the book says so? Ok, sure. The same book which happens to be written by man. Seriously? Is there a higher being that exists? Yes, but no one has seen it. You go by the picture that is painted on the walls of churches, but that is the image society has given you just as it has given you the book. Everyone uses their words gently and they act so proper. But what happens behind closed doors? You mask yourself well so no one can see you, and later, you reveal the person that no one has recognized. So, who are you really?

Do I look like an idiot to you? Do you want to know something? Continue lying to yourself as you always have done and always will do. The best part is when they say, “Don’t read this because they are trying to confuse you more and take away what you believe in.” But the sad thing about this is that you have no idea what it’s really about or why I wrote it!